Monday, January 17, 2011

Another fairly productive day

Kinda cool.. had things that we had to do and actually got them done. Works for me. Got kid to band, went and did the pig food run (always fun and exciting,) went to the Asian Market and got oils, went to Aldi's and got food, and went to old fashion foods and got some clay stuff for soap and some apple cider vinegar and jojoba oil for soap (found out it's pronounced hohoba.. if you're going to pronounce it with an h.. use an h when spelling with it.. makes sense to me) Then came home, unloaded everything and cooked supper. Had a Mexican feast of tostadas and tacos.. really good. filled them with refried black beans, had some sausage that we added to it. Rob made some guacamole and it was fabulous. Really good. Then the kids and Rob watched Superman Returns.. good day, good night.

tomorrow I'm going to make some hot process shampoo bars with the jojoba oil. I'll post that recipe. I've got to figure out the camera thingy too. Sadie's going to kid on me and I won't have a camera to show off. Heavens :) What's a goat lady got to do??

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Sunday

We had a beautiful day today. Church was great. I'm loving this Sunday school thing. I'm really loving our church. I'm learning so much and really feel like it's where the Lord has led us. A good feeling. Not comfortable all of the time, but I don't expect that anymore. I don't need to be patted on the head and told what a good little girl I'm being, I need to be challenged and not necessarily confronted, that's the wrong word, but guided.. I've lost the right word tonight.. from the pulpit. Church doesn't need to always be comfortable. Today it was good and I can't wait to get strength together to get started working with the young'uns That will be a blessing and a definite challenge.

Then we came home and moved cows. Rob is convinced my horses are spawns of satan.. we go through this every winter. His cow gets skinny because my fat horses won't let her eat. My fat horses probably don't let anyone eat. We need to put more hay down there than we do, but I can't say anything right at this moment. His cow is skinny. And that stupid calf is still nursing. I think that's a big part of why she's not gaining, but .. well .. my fat horses... But we got her and the calf up here. Almost got Callie moved up too. That's the other cow. She looks good. But she was also being a toad. So she is now a funny looking horse that's hanging with Sonny, my big fat paint horse. When Rob went down there she was sharing a bale of hay with him. We have 4 cows and a bull.. three wild unsociable cows; Gladys, Callie, and Coco (Gladys and Coco are the mother/daughter team that moved up here now and are in the emu pen terrorizing the poor emu) and then we have Daphne, the sweet, beautiful, brown eyed strange looking goat that lives in the goat pen... she's a holstein calf. Actually she has been off her feed a bit the past couple of days. We've been starting to wean her off her bottle and I think we need to put her back on it with straight goat's milk to get her gut back in order.

Speaking of goats.. no babies. Sigh. I'm ready for babies. Andi thinks that Sadie may have twins.. that would be so, so awesome. I'm not wild about the buck that I had. He was a lamancha cross and kind of a brat. Heavy built, but short.  Sades is big and long enough to compensate for it, so I'm hoping for a couple of doelings out of her. That would rock. Andi thinks Sher is also bred, but may only be carrying a singleton, wouldn't surprise me. Same with Izzy, Iz is a first freshener, so that's what I expect. I don't really think that Jesse is pregnant, but if she is, I only expect one out of her too. She's not sure about Sassy. I don't think that she's pregnant and if she isn't, I think I'm going to end up selling her. I've had her out there with three bucks and she hasn't taken with any of them :(

Well the dogs are being obnoxious. and I have to clean out the shower before I can take a shower. I used some deep conditioner the other night, olive oil, and it made the bottom of the shower super slippery; so I have to clean it off before I take a shower. Then I gotta hit the bed. Tomorrow's band day. I'm ready :)

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Wow, it's been a few days

It's been a few days since I've been here! Not a whole bunch going on. Still in molasses land from no treatment. Went in Friday and the doc decided that we're going to up the dose of cytoxan (heck of a name for a chemo isn't it?? cytoxan.. we will now be placing cy toxan in your system.. this is to make you feel better.. just fills a person with all sorts of warm fuzzies.. NOT.. but so be, it works and I'm not complaining.. but do wish they could find a different name for the stuff.. something like 'knock the socks off your immune system".. "REBOOT".. or something to that effect.. Ended up not taking the kids to band Wednesday. Held down the couch and slept with the dogs.. blech. This too shall pass. But back to the doc visit Friday. Since they are upping the dose of cytoxan, they have to give another med to protect my bladder. Cytoxan isn't bladder friendly and causes burns and such.. not nice. So instead of a 2 hr treatment, it's a 5 hour treatment, which meant that I needed to come back. And that means I get to go back Wednesday.. yea.. I'm thrilled.. Not.. Wondering how we're going to manage all of this because I don't have anyone to take care of Elijah, nor to take him to band on Wednesday. And Rob is working. We'll figure it out, we always do. I am going to see if I can wait until next Monday (the 24th) and go then.. might as well go for broke and take forever and a day to get treatment.. SIGH.

So that covers that. I'm still in molasses land. But making it. Yesterday was Rob's and my anniversary (just spent 5 minutes trying to figure out the correct tense to put that in.. who cares.. my blog, y'all get what I mean.. I speak and I type Southern.. no one is following me, therefore no one has to read this.. therefore no one has to deal with it .. LOL)  But anyhow, we've been married 8 years. And what a blessed 8 years it's been. Tremendous blessings. Trials too, but so many blessings.My knight in shining aluminum. And the best couch-holder-downer around .. he's doing that now. He worked all night Thursday night, took me to the doc Friday, came home went to sleep about 3, slept on and off until about 8, went back to sleep at 10 and woke up at 5 this morning. Then couldn't go back to sleep. So now he's crashed on the couch. I figure he'll be up and at'em ready for church in the am, driving us all nutso, but that's okay. He's good at it.

Today my good buddy Andi came out to look at a couple of places around here. It would be so awesome if she and her brood moved out this way. My oh my.. could we all get into some trouble.. well not trouble, but glory be, we'd have a lot of food put up, animals hatched out, milked, butchered. She's a baking fool. She also does herbal things out the wazoo. She's not that comfortable canning. But man alive that woman can make anything grow. Anything. And she's a whiz at making something from nothing. Things that I have to get better at. I can can and put up things and make soap.. that's my claim to fame, period. that's it. That's all she wrote. I can also crochet.. whoo hooo.. not a whole bunch. But she and her hubby are the real deal. They do it all. I have a lot of respect for them both and love them dearly.

Well tomorrow is church day, I need a shower and go to bed. Gotta get up and get to Sunday school What a blessing it is to get to go to Sunday school.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

It's getting better

Well, it's Wednesday.. technically, actually early Wednesday. Friday I get treatment, I'm in that countdown thingy. I really am. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Rant over.. done :)..
Today was slightly productive. 9 quarts and 4 pints of beans canned. yippeee. Something accomplished. Woke up to a tree down in the goat yard. Somewhat disconcerting, but it wasn't really that big of a deal. Rob'll have to cut down some more trees in the goat yard, there are quite a few dead, which is a bummer, but we'll have some cedar posts.
Tomorrow is music. Praying that I wake up feeling okay and it's not too frigid. I've got to have the energy to go. I need to work on the YCME directory, but don't see it happening in the am. But it might, who knows :).
Going to be cold, cold here tonight.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

SNOW!!!!!

It snowed here this afternoon. And the world has stopped. I love living in Arkansas. I've lived here since I was a teenager, so I can't drive in the white stuff either, but remember that people really can drive in it and remember as a child that snow shouldn't be a major deal. In Arkansas it is. It really is. Two snowflakes hit the road and schools start closing for the next day. We have major tornadoes that slam this area with more frequency than I'm comfortable with, last year the national weather service decided that it wouldn't be a severe thunderstorm unless the winds were over 58 miles an hour (vs 50).. hail over an inch, lots and lots of lightening. In other words a big bad sucker that's fixing to drop a tornado on us.. I live in tornado alley.. let the wind blow over 40  and one air mass cross another air mass and we have super cells trucking down the highway and the Tiv parked over in OK (I'm in the hills, they don't like chase in the hills.. hard to see the tornadoes and hard to get good pictures. understandable!) BUTTTTTTTT... it snows a drop.. we get WINTER STORM WARNINGS left and right all over the place, 5 news storm coverage, team storm coverage.. Garrett rolls up his sleeves (there's a Facebook page thingy "when Garrett rolls up his sleeves the sh*t's gonna hit the fan"... yes, I'm one of the many fans) Anyhow, we have about 3/4 of an inch. The roads are bad, Ginger doesn't have band tomorrow. Rob is supposed to go to work tomorrow night, but we'll have to see tomorrow.

This weekend has been pretty good. I haven't accomplished much. Rob has gotten a lot done. He's gotten all of the lard and tallow done. Over 4 gallons all told. I've really got to find a good soap recipe to use the tallow in. It's so pretty. I've got to get it together this week. I need to get the YCME directory done, it shouldnt' take me too long once I get it going. I'd like to have it ready for Wednesday. Friday is treatment day. I'm ready, so ready.

So, this week, I'd like to get some potatoes canned, some beans canned. Probably do that on Tuesday. Wednesday is band. Thursday I'd like to do a batch of cold process soap and wrap it up for Friday. I'd also like to load up some photo software and start posting pictures to this thing :)

Today was church and I've just kind of been blah since then. We did manage to make it Sunday school, and my oh my, God is so faithful. So so faithful. The truck overheated and it looks like one of the hoses was frozen.. but nothing was cracked or broken.. and he added water (and antifreeze) to it and we got to church at 10:12. I couldn't believe it. I was shocked. And so happy :) Talked to the Pastor and after I get through this chemo stuff, I'll start teaching the middle aged kidlets (8-12 or something like that) I'm excited. The Lord has really laid it on my heart to *do* something, to be a servant unto Him and I"m ready for this. Also spoke to Pastor about some prison/jail ministry. I feel that's a place where we're being led too. It's that bit of excitement growing again.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Preparing Against the Cold

Ugh.. it's January.. and it's going to get cold. And being as we're on a farm type place we had to get ready for it. Today was very pretty. Elijah was in a mood, Rob was in a mood, I was in a mood, Ging was in a mood.. But we got a lot done. Set out hay for the horses. And my oh my, it was absolutely glorious. Skies as blue as only an Arkansas sky can be in the middle of a dry winter. The wind was blowing hard, the horses were crazy, crazy. But they were happy, and now they're fed and checked on. Everyone is fine. It's a relief to only have the 8 we have now. I can't believe that at one point we had 28 horses and a burro. Now we have 7.5 horses (Petey is a mini) and 2 burros and the three cows in the back pasture. We have the 6 goats, 2 calves, 3 real pigs, 2 piglets, 2 pot belly pigs, and emu up here.. along with the chickens, geese, ducks. It's still an enormous amount of animals, but it's a workable number. I do need to get some more animals for the homestead, but I don't want to think about it right now.

Well the hubs done good today. He conquered the lard. He rendered down all of the pig fat from the last pig we had processed. Albeit it was a smelly process. And one that I had to leave the kitchen for about mid-way through, but I am now the proud owner of a coffee can, 2 quarts, a butter dish, and a pint of lard. I will be soaping with it. Our neighbor had a cow processed and brought us the beef fat today. Tomorrow Rob is going to be rendering that down for me. Now do you see why I love him and I'm so spoiled :) He would've done it tonight, but my stupid head was splitting. Same neighbor also gave us some steak.. nice neighbor. We have been blessed, very blessed today. I really can't wait to try to make some soap with beef tallow, I've heard that makes some really nice soap. I'm getting antsy to want to make some soaps again.

Well I forgot what my 'to-do' list was for today.. but I don't think I accomplished it. I know that we stayed fairly busy and we got stuff done. I was able to help Rob a bit, which was nice. We've gotten most of the stuff done to be ready for the cold snap. I checked on the ladies, no one looks like they're about to pop right away. No one is bagged up or acting weird, so I think we're okay.. I pray. I would like for them to wait a week or so now, but goats will be goats. We have everything to put the light up in the milking shed and Rob said he might do that tomorrow if he feels up to it. He's still not feeling really great and I'm not going to push him. We'll see what happens. All I know is that I'm tired now and since I didn't sleep that well last night, I'm going to give it a good shot tonight :), Good night and God Bless!!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Progress!!!!

Today has been a day of progress. I got a lot of minor things done.. yippeeee! Things that needed to be done. Now I'm exhausted. I did email the pastor. We'll see what he says. I put it out, if he feels the same, great, if not, great. I don't know if the Lord really wants me teaching middle grade kids. I have one of them at home.

Now, another thing.. how this blog is going. Do I want to keep it rambling unto myself. For now, probably. As time goes on I think I'll make it more of a farm journal, soaper type thing. I need something for me at the moment.  Got the calendula oils done last night. Some in olive oil for soap, hopefully I'll do some of that this week end, to mainly see how it cures in the cold. Then I got some in grapeseed oil for us to use as hand cream and such. I'd like to figure out how to make some lotion and such using calendula That's about to be on the forefront. Goat's milk lotion. It's going to take a bit of money to get started, so it'll be a few weeks, but I'd like to get some going using some of the herbal things I know. Today I made some salve, it was interesting. I screwed up somewhere because it's a little too thick; I have a question for Andi to see if I can soften it up, or do I just heat it up everytime I need it. Either way it's good stuff. Smells fantastic. Used a pound of beeswax in it.. absolutely glorious. I'd love to have more beeswax and make some lip balm and stuff.. I'd really, love, love, love to have bees, but being allergic to them, I don't think that would be a good idea.

Also got some stock done today. 5 quarts done. Rob tells me now that he thinks the stuffing was still in the bird.. ah well.. it's had the crap boiled out of it now and strained and reboiled and strained.. and pressured. It's safe. May taste a little 'interesting' but hey a lot of our food tastes 'interesting'.. which is why we can't replicate it often.

Tomorrow I need to email the student loan ppl and see if we can start figuring out why they can't seem to figure out that yes, I am still disabled and it's not getting any better. I really dislike dealing with that. But I have to do it and while Rob's in a bad mood because he's sick with a sinus infection (and didn't listen to me about all the herbs I told him to take.. he took some, not all.. which is why it didn't go into bronchitis,) I might as well just allow myself to be in a bad mood too and deal with them. So I'll email them and start that argument and mail them more stuff if they'll give me an address this time and hopefully that'll take care of student loan ppl. Tell you what, if they'll make the MonSter go away, I'll go to work and happily pay off the student loans.. I'd be happy to do that. I'd be a drug/alcohol counselor or  a caseworker and I'd pay on my loans happily. But.. it's not something that student loans can do, so I'll deal with that by starting the email process tomorrow (sorry I sound bitter)

Today has been a MonSter day. I'm ready for treatment. I don't like getting chemo, I really don't. It makes me feel lousy, I puke.. everyone loves to puke.. NOT. But I woke up this morning with a numb spot on my tongue. Come on now.. this one is new. One small spot on my tongue that is numb. It has driven me up the wall all day long. I have gone to the bathroom mirror to look at it a dozen times, nothing's wrong with it.. it's just numb. I've also had the MonSter hug.. hugs are great.. MonSter hugs aren't.. it's like from right under my arms to just above my belly button is in a vise. a nice tight vise. that squeezes every so often. Not comfy.. And the ever present headache.. 8 days away.. just 8 days away. I'm ready.

Other plans for tomorrow. Getting ready for the cold snap. Gotta get hay out in the back, lots of hay out. Get hay up here too. I'd like to have a couple of bags of shavings ready just in case we have kids. And some wood cut up. I'd also like to have all the waterers cleaned out and filled. Maybe that'll happen. I'd like to can up some potatoes this weekend while I have the canner out. Lots to do, praying for energy!!!!

On that merry note, going to head to bed!